That scar.
All you've got, is what's left
It's not right that what you felt
Someone told you
What you had, was what
Had saved you from
Your future self.

Don't apologize
For what you didn't find
Seeded feel within the floor,
Of your feet,
Your rooted self

My thoughts penned down
Tumbled out
Round and round like a washing machine
Like words written on skin
Fading everyday leaving tiny pigment marks within

We got no tribe,
Onward we ride,
We fall we rise
Ahead of our times,
Lift our heads
Hold them up high
Inspire mankind?
Even man-unkind?

We got organs,
No guitars,
Our eggs we carry far-
Baskets on the side,
Not talking about the ones inside

We are a tribe
Each roadbump
That we climb
In our hearts
Soaring high
No one can deny,
Follow on,
keep moving on,
Soar high
Living life,
In hindsight?

You.

Long winding roads
Seem pleasant like the breeze,
My voice won't let me sing,
I'm croaking like a toad.
The sunlight sends you codes
Leaves teach you, leave. Don't tease

All the memories in your soul
Kind and beautiful -they're free
Gypsy- your life, a story told
Vivid colours in black and white
Through this attempt of
A musical masterpiece
My heart attempts to be bold

I sit and write, what I could find
Three days of rides, more roads in life.

Creep green eyes

You helped me find
What we defined
And helped me see
How great we'd be

Your eyes they speak
Different coloured melodies
The years you lied
Your pain I believed

She sits dumb founded
Spell bound
Acts more like a clown
Feelings, emotions
Going down
No collar, no owner
Straight to the dog pound
Screaming aloud, yet no sound

Lost face.

Somedays, I'm out of place,
Thoughless in my own space
Why? How's everything fast paced?
This drug I smoke, is it also laced?

Contemplating life, with no Grace.
In this world, why I use mace?
Everything is moving, still dazed
Evolution. Thats the case
Still no one for a warm embrace

The pleasure of walking through
The joys you help me see
Through clouds of rain
And the birds that sing their sweet melody.
The pain you help me feel
WE ignore the things that don't matter
Cherish the things we have, oh! yeah we do!
You help me see the beauty within
You teach me right from wrong,
You hold my hand and walk me through
The beautiful world where I belong!

What if this world didn't exist?
And what if we never saw?
What if none of this mattered?
Where then would we fall?

To have you and not hold you,
You would never really know...

What its like to be the one in love!


When i need someone, I find some one
is this the right kind of feeling?
Is this, what I am?

Mutuality of feelings

The world around me begins to cry,
As i feel the pain i begin to shy,
They cry and they smile-
Hopelessly I nod
Cautiously I talk-
Peacefully i walk away-

Their talks and the words - grab me-
As they begin to speak,
Slowly but surely I turn away.

Finally the fight surrendered,
The pain they feel- i admit-
I feel it too.
The tears they cry-
I cry them too.

Reality

The faces i scorn,
The Voices I detest,
The sounds of silence,
Like music to the ear.

The eyes clashing,
And the painful screams
The echoes through the white noise in my head.

The people around me
Believe in me
The scenes from the movie
Replayed in my mind.

(written in 2006!)

Plea to Gaiya (mother earth)

Windows under ceilings
Hanging in the air
People shed their tears
and they run everywhere
The sky that was frozen,
Hanging in no where,
The sun with the stars
and the life that was there.

Gaiya we call upon you now (through)
The trees the flowers the rainbows in the sky

Peoples' changing faces,
The smell of burning hair,
The frantic screams,
The violence- The shooting in the air,
The smoke that blinds the sky
from the riots that were there
Burning of all humans left unaware.

Gaiya we call upon you now
wake and give me reasons why we live

The rioters were humans
Who left without a care,
The shooting and the torching,
The brotherhood gone bare,
We call upon you mother
"Come and save us all
Hear the humble plea
Of your daughter your own soul."

Gaiya we call upon you now
Wake and give me reasons - why i sing.

The distraught woman

Exploitation of all kinds
Young woman and child
Abused subdued all her life
Shes lived a lie
I know the pain that she has
Lived with each day
Sexual exploitation-
The voice I never heard

Smile the world screams out loud
Hazy faces causes crystal eye
She drowns herself in the whiskey-
The spirit takes her life

The world has told her
She knows nothing but hate.
Hatred: The feeling built up-
It takes her life away...

Smile the world screams out loud
Hazy faces causes crystal eye
She drowns herself in the whiskey-
The spirit takes her life

Randomness

ॐ नमः शिवा ஓம் நம் சிவ



Indecency the key to bad omen, the spell cursed, beyond repair... the lines of thought fade... under the undertones of confusion। The reason unknown।


Its only when senseless emotions take over the vulnerable mind, that the chance to feel upset is given to the soul. Inspite of the permission that needs to be granted to upset the other, still somehow the feeble mind lets the thoughts take over....


The pondering minds, fill with laughter, as the brash human lives in vain. Thought processes with nothing to match, the violent mind weeps in vain...Bodies hurt, minds tortured by the ignorance of what lies ahead.... Little knowledge is never enough to make judgments on that complicated human.

ॐ नमः शिवा

GRIEVEANCE

The floor seems hard,
The sky- not so distant,
The ground - too high
The weight - minimal
The brain - empty
Patience outrun by depression
The mind makes me,
The decision takes me!

Madness!

When life gets you down,
And there's no one around,
Look up at the sky
And loose the will to die.

When the world seems empty,
Look into the fridge,
Grab a beer,
Drink to eternity.

When life gets you down,
And you got nowhere to run,
Grab a brush, and paint your feelings.

Do whats best- show a finger to the rest!!!

ILLUSIONS

Covered with shame,
No one to blame,
Helping the helpless,
Not knowing them dead.
The illusion of reality
Shadowed by self-deception
Faking the life once lead-
Not facing the truth.

Who chose their road,
The one un-tread.
The portrait of a blinking idiot
In my head.

The more I linger,
Still more fool I appear
Deceiving myself-
Hiding from reality-
The illusions in my head.


The faces I see- cold and bare-
The voices I hear so unclear,
Not known to me- or understandable I say
The illusion created by the remedies faked
The truth unsaid - Painful indeed.
The gifts of rich value through which I'm paid.
The noise, the confusion -
The distraction I sense-
All these illusions in my head!

L_ve- for her beloved

Never before in this world of pain,
Ever have I imagined, that I'd ever gain-
The pain and the suffering-
Of the years that have passed-
Through the lessons of experience I've Affixed in my veins-

But, now its no more a question of pain-
Nor hurt, nor Fear nor hate for the near-

Love and passion, Fire and flame-
Is what I call the name of this game.

The locks that are curly-
The eyes with no shame-
The innocence, the wonder even through pain-
The hurt that was caused
Through the years- All in vain-
Just a feeling- the word love- makes me insane.

Echoes

Sitting all alone,
Thinking life was just a dream,
Listening to the sounds of,
The silence of the screams,

And then you came along,
Made me see you through the light,
And now my song is sung,
I have nowhere to hide.

The Power of Her.....

Melodies of the fated,
Silently creeps- the fallen stars-
Silently weep.

At the break of dawn,
The smoke fills the air-
The peace of the night-
The darkness unseen.

The sounds of the night
Silenced by laughter-
Silent smiles-
The smell of disaster.

What if this world had never existed-
What if this all was but a dream?
The spotlight moves from person to person-
Fifteen minutes of fame- Through destruction and curses.


She blows a storm-
The air we breathe,
Through deer and faun
The elegance beneath.

Revelation calls
With trumpet and horn.
The name proclaimed-
Of our mother beloved.

Fire and sin- tagged as evil.
For what? They ask-
For pain or for pleasure?


Come tome beneath the sky,
Or I will come to earth and die-
Immortal soul destroyed by man,
The buzzing sound of her heart weeping.

Beautiful mother,
Through trees and weed-
The stars,the moon and
The waters that bleed-
The flowers that fall
Beneath our feet...
Do we stop to notice- her breath we breath?

The sounds, the sights,
The fragrance of hers,
Words to shallow to proclaim what I feel.

Honestly though what I didn't know,
Is the wrath she could cause
With just a blow.
It is me you see-
In your eyes- I AM.
But, for all you know,
I could even be her!

The trance tranquility and
Peace within- Bestowed upon us
By our blessed sin-
Life overpowered by our very greed.

PEACE! OM SHANTI! SHALOM! I plead!!!